I didn't really know what to expect when I brought Katrina to my office Christmas party last week. There was everyone with their girlfriends and husbands and wives... and in I walk with my cute half-guatemalan girlfriend, looking gorgeous in her blouse & slacks. I expected whispers. I expected awkwardness. I expected double-takes.
But in reality, there was none of that (at least, from what I saw). People met her and shook her hand and smiled and asked her name. They were nice to her, of course. Honestly? It was pretty uneventful. I think part of me was a little disappointed because I overheard a few people say something about "Ruth's friend". I don't think they got it. I think they saw what they wanted to see.
I wanted to yell, "this is my amazing girlfriend, my significant other, my everything! I'm in love with her!" But of course, I didn't. Why do we want people to know about our relationships? Why do we feel a need to share our happiness and define things for people? I guess for me... it's because I don't think that people really know me unless they know my other half. And I want to be honest and known as I am.
Either way, it was a big and scary step for me, and I still felt a huge relief afterwards. At least now I can say "Katrina this" and "Katrina that" and they'll know who I'm talking about! And I feel freer now, if someone asks anything about dating, I can just slip in "oh yeah, Katrina, remember? You met her at the Christmas party?"
(Or maybe the joke's on me and they all secretly know... I wish!)
I was happy to escape with my love for the weekend and we celebrated our Christmas together. It was a wonderful little getaway, we were able to focus on just being together with nothing else to worry about for a change. Hope you are all having a beautiful holiday season with everyone you love!
|I like her a lot.|
|Our Jellycat owls, my new one from Australia on the right!|
|Katrina decorated and wrapped presents while I was at work. Gnome Santa!|
|All she wanted for Christmas was... a cooler |
(the big present on the right).
|She got me a Keurig!!! I love love love it!|